Application in...

14 November 2021: Took a big step today, applying for a new position at Shepherd. I feel split right down the middle, equally very excited and not-at-all certain about it. I wonder about my motivations, which voices in my head (and otherwise) to listen to, and how I can keep my own happiness in sight--and just what that really is, not what think/want it to be. 

But all I've done so far is apply. And I can keep thinking and praying about it. So we'll see what happens next.